What do you get when you take away fear?

I’m very haphazard in my meditations. If I do decide to meditate, it’s usually when I’ve first woken up in the morning whilst I’m lying in bed. There are several reasons for this. First, it’s warm and comfortable (the most important reason for me!) and second, the issues of the day have not yet intruded in my mind. My brain waves are still in a fairly quiet state and I’m more receptive to information coming through when I’m in this state.

Quite often I fall asleep again. It’s so restful and peaceful. But I also get a lot of imagery when I am in that between sleep phase, and this is where the goodness lies.

In a recent meditation, I asked the question “what do you get when you take away fear?” I’m not sure where this question came from. I think it might have been provided for me. The answer was not what I expected either. I thought the answer would be love. Instead, the instantaneous answer was “wholeness”.

The garden

I then saw an image of a small garden within a larger garden. The small garden was surrounded by a white picket fence. It was protecting the small garden, keeping it safe, and not allowing in things from the bigger garden.

But it also meant this smaller garden was kept separate from the bigger garden. It was not part of it. As the ‘gardener’, I was not able to explore the bigger garden. I could only tend to and enjoy this smaller patch of garden. I could not go beyond the boundaries I had placed there.

In my mind, the fence suddenly fell down flat and I was now part of the larger garden. I was awestruck at the size of it. I knew it had always been there but I hadn’t looked beyond my fence. I hadn’t given myself the opportunity to see what could be, because I was too busy tending to what was.

This larger garden went on for acres and acres. It was huge and I began exploring it. The first place I went to, interestingly enough, was the shadows. The shadows within ourselves are often difficult, challenging places, so it was interesting to note that this was the first place I went.

I was prepared for something challenging but instead found a beautiful, soft area covered in ferns and moss with gently dripping water. It was peaceful and calm, cooler than the full heat of the sun. It was a gentle retreat from the world. A place to reflect and recharge. I was surprised at this. It wasn’t what I was expecting, so I was quite delighted to find this little haven in the garden.

Then I was visiting other places in the garden, walking through the beautiful flower beds and sitting by the lake, looking at the reflections in the water and noting how calm it was.

The boundaries of this larger garden also dropped away, the imagery zoomed out, and I was shown the world. In effect, the more fears I release, the bigger my garden gets until the whole world is accessible to me.

What is this imagery telling me?

When I allow my fears to control me, I am not whole. I am only a small portion of what I could be. I am part of a bigger ‘garden’ but I was fencing myself in, only allowing myself access to a minute portion of the whole me. And as the imagery zoomed out, I realised that the garden was bigger than I ever imagined. It wasn’t just acres and acres, it was the whole world. So the amount I’d been limiting myself to was like one drop out of a whole ocean.

I was fairly stunned. Had I really been keeping myself THAT small?

The question also arises - why am I only just finding this out now? After all the inner work I’ve done, all the releases, all the leaps of faith and facing of my fears, why am I only just now being shown the possibility of what it might look like to release yet more fears.

The answer is, of course, because I wasn’t ready, but now I am.

More fears to release

And the flip side of the coin is that this is showing me I still have fears to release! It seems never ending, and I suppose it always is. That is part of the human journey. One fear will simply be replaced with another, gradually getting less and less constricting until we eventually reach enlightenment in some future lifetime.

In order to understand my fears, I wrote them all down. Every single one that I could think of. I had five big ticket items. I was quite proud of myself for identifying those. Then I was encouraged to explore more deeply (thank you Akashic Records) to understand what was underneath those fears, and I realised there was more than I thought.

What was interesting about this exercise was that I discovered I’d written down some fears that I’ve actually let go of or didn’t hold such deep meaning any more. They were fears that had always come up but I realise no longer need to. It was almost like I’d written them out of habit because they’ve always been there.

A lot of my fears were about not being able to get ahead, of being stuck in a loop and not making progress. I recently described myself as feeling like I was stuck in a glass box, seeing what I wanted but being unable to get there because of invisible barriers thwarting any progress.

Removing the fence

So how does one remove that picket fence, release those fears and access the whole garden?

The Akashic Records guided me at this point and said the first step was to identify them so that they can be worked on in a conscious manner.

The second step is not to let them overwhelm me. They can be worked through and overcome over time. This can be quite hard, because these fears can be overwhelming at times.

I was also told that many of these fears are in the process of being overcome and are not far off completion - yay! Really good to know, otherwise it felt a little depressing looking at this long list of fears.

The third step was to reflect. I was reminded that I will notice a change within myself, particularly when I look back and notice just how far I’ve come. This is a really good point to remember. Because change can be gradual, we don’t always see what we’ve achieved, so reflecting back and recognising just how far we’ve come over a certain period of time can be quite empowering.

Grateful for the Akashic Records

What I’m enormously grateful for is the encouragement and support I get through the Akashic Records. I wrote down my initial list of fears and they said “go deeper, there is more to explore here”.

Apart from the fact that it’s good to understand just what my fears are, I’m wondering now if it was important to get these fears written down so that when I reflect back on them in detail at the end of the year, I can really see how far I’ve come. I may not have released the whole fear, but there may be components within it that I’ve overcome, and that will be really good to recognise. It shows progress even if I’m not yet victorious.

Within this particular session, we then went on to discuss one area in more detail, which expanded into how that might look for humanity as a whole in the future. So the conversation in the Records was at once specific and wide ranging. I could be as narrow or broad as I wanted, and having gone from detail to big picture, I then dived back into the detail again.

What does wholeness look like?

Fears are often developed from painful situations that we don’t want to occur again. It was interesting to visually see in this meditation what that looked like for me and the possibilities (in a metaphorical way) that were available if I let go of those fears.

Understanding that wholeness would result was fascinating. I automatically thought removing my fears would allow in love, as love is the opposite of fear. I hadn’t come at it from the perspective of wholeness before, but now it makes total sense.

Wholeness means accepting every part of me and knowing they are all important. Even those not so nice, gnarly bits that I’d rather avoid, and believe me, I have far more of those than I would like.

It means looking at each fear, finding the root cause of it, and looking at the truth of it. More often than not, this allows a deeper understanding of Self and the ability to release that fear in order for growth and expansion to occur.

It’s uncomfortable though, and brings up emotions that can be challenging. I had this just today as I found yet another unhelpful belief I didn’t know I had (why are there so many?!). I could feel the anger and upset rising in me. So I expressed it, wrote down exactly what I felt and read it out loud to release it. The emotion passed quickly and I was able to move on and delve deeper into the subject matter.

Work in progress

As you can see from the above, I’m a work in progress, as we all are, but I found this meditation imagery and discussion in the Records really helpful. I share this information to encourage you to identify your own fears so that you may begin to overcome them.

It’s also to remind you that it is possible to receive support on all manner of things through the Akashic Records. They are there to offer insights and a higher perspective that will open doors to deeper understanding.

Whilst the initiation for this discussion in the Records came from a meditation, it was the Records that encouraged me to look more deeply at my fears so that I might reflect back on them at a later date and see my progress.

I shall be doing this later in the year. In the meantime, the meditation imagery has stayed clearly with me and I’m determined to continue expanding my garden (aka myself) over time.

Kàren